[180] of your existence implicitly and explicitly. === ( [After the lecture, in conversation with student, Edwin Knopf^a:] –concerning the question about the existence, etc., of Christ-- The transformation of personal reality can only happen in personal reality. ... QN: What difference does it make whether or not He was forced and unwilling to sacrifice....? PT: Then nothing was changed, because we all are unwilling. And He also was unwilling, and finally accepted. What would be the difference for personal life if somebody was murdered? That is nothing. The very fact of being murdered is nothing... The decisive thing is the personal transformation. This personal transformation is possible only in a personal acceptance of the sacrifice of finitude.^b---